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When I am weak, then I am Strong…

That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  -2 Corinthians 12:10

While I have always been a skeptic of church and all that jazz, I do have faith in a greater something.  On Wednesday night I had a bit of a climatic moment with my infamous ex boyfriend.  Let’s keep it simple and say that the truth always comes out and he is such a liar that shit hit the fan.  I found out the truth about many things and so did his new girl friend.  I will also defend myself by saying that i did not want to cause any drama or issues between and his new girl, but shit happens.

That night I was quite depressed and started to watch one of my favorite shows HBO’s Taxi Cab Confessions.  In the show one of the guys said this quote, i googled it and realized that it was from the bible.  This quote resonated with me, mainly because of the things that my ex kept saying to me this night and all of the next morning.

This quote makes me be ok with the b.s that we as humans have to go through every single day.  Because every single bit of hardship, every obstacle, every  heartache, and disappointment, while it strips us to our inner weakest most vulnerable selves will only create stronger beings in the end.

This summer was awesome, im sad its over.  I’ve learned so much about myself, and people.  I know that I have become stronger through every single experience whether good or bad.

thank you, creator, life, ect for making sure I experienced this.

I’m not really religious but many experiences in life bring you closer to God, and I think this definitely did.


The Perks of Being Alone.

There are many wonderful advantages to being alone.  I can say this now that I am single and far from mingling.

“You have to learn how to be happy alone, so when lonely pours in, you’ll be more than fine, you’ll be relieved.”

I recently put this up as a facebook status after being inspired by a video (below).

While relationships and love are all wonderful things, trust me I love being in love.  Being alone doesn’t have to be a punishment after a relationship goes awry.

For example I was in a 16 month relationship, very much in love and all that shit, but it didn’t work out.  Why? Well let say this guy loves being in love more than me and when our relationship got rocky he went to another woman.  I left him, and he moved on to her.  But at first I was pretty sad about it, I mean come on, who wouldn’t be?

That was in April, we are now in the month of August and im actually relieved to be single.  I’ve had a pretty wonderful summer.  I mean clearly everyday isn’t going to be easy.  But I have learned to be happy alone and I know that the next time that I get my heartbroken, which will happen.  I will bounce back so much quicker because I know how to be happy alone.

You must learn to keep yourself happy because people are flawed they will make mistakes, they will fuck up, and they will make you unhappy.  So you must be there  for you, you must love you, and you must make your self happy as fuck.  Make sense.

This single summer of mine, I learned so much, things I wouldn’t have learned if that relationship would have continued.  I would have spent my time, arguing, crying, wishing and praying he would work harder to make me happy.  When that wasnt up to him, all along it was my responsibility to make me happy and the minute i noticed that i was unhappy in that relationship I should have left and started over with myself.

This isn’t just about being alone after a relationship, this is about being ok with being alone anytime, during lunch, or while at home, on the train ride home, at the movies.  It’s ok to hang out with yourself.  You’re the coolest person you know, so why not spend quality time with yourself.

“..Cause if you’re happy in your head, then solitude is blessed, and alone is ok” (from the vid)